I found freedom in the woods...
Have you ever had a spiritual experience? One that you know will forever change your life? The way you look at the world? I had one of those experiences last year, and this is my story….
As I walked up the stairs to enter the healing space, I was a little unsure about what I was about to experience.
I felt resistance in me...why?
I know enough to know that when I feel resistance, it means that my internal sonar is sounding off. That sonar is like an alarm, warning me that I need to look more deeply at what is happening, or about to 'go down.'
I found my spot amongst the other participants who arrived for the sound healing. I've attended a sound healing before, but something about that night felt different, it felt unknown. The facilitator began the session by offering a "gong saging." I have never experienced this before, so I guess you can say I was a "gong virgin." I watched with curious eyes as she walked around the room and stood behind each participant. She wielded her mallet like a magic wand and began the energetic clearing of all in attendance. One by one, the gong sounded. I was fascinated as I listened to the gong; it made a completely unique sound for each person. I imagine it was clearing our individual auras in the perfect way for us to best receive what was coming.
When it was my turn to receive the gong saging, I felt the vibration of the sound reverberate through my spine. It was a mighty blast of energy moving through me. I wasn't sure exactly what it was doing, but I knew it was quite purposeful. As I was being "gonged," I felt my resistance magically fading away. It was as if that gong had broken through my wall of fear, the one that rears its ugly head when I am faced with change.
The facilitator then settled on the floor and prepared to play a spectacular array of crystal and Tibetan (metal) singing bowls. What at first felt eerie, quickly became enchanting. The sounds were mesmerizing. I can honestly say, I was not only hearing those bowls with my ears; I was receiving their healing tones with my soul. My entire being felt and "received" the high pitched timbre, almost as if it was a multidimensional experience. And in a flash, I was taken on a magnificent journey of healing.
I was brought back in time to several unhealed relationships from my past. I met each one of those relationships through the lens of healing, closure, and new understanding.
Ahh, now I understood the resistance.
I went places I simply had not allowed myself to go before. I journeyed and met the souls of people I hadn't thought of for years and years, yet there they were standing before me. Each one showed me the gift that I was meant to receive from whatever heartache or disappointment I endured. Each one made amends, and I too made amends for my flawed humanity, my perspective, and my responses.
In some cases, I was shown how my choices and behaviors had impacted their lives, how my rejection or separation from them had served or will serve them greatly in this lifetime.
Powerful is an understatement.
I felt myself weeping several times as I received the healing, the clearing, and the alignment. I was finally able to own the truth of what had happened. I was finally able to see the other side of the coin, and in that acknowledgment, I was free.
As the session came to an end, the facilitator sang powerful notes channeled from indigenous ancestors. The sounds she sang had no translation into words, but their melody and intonation were clear: the places I journeyed to, the people I met, and the relationships I faced were complete. Whatever unresolved karma I entered that room with was now finished with those souls. I was free.
Needless to say, I was emotionally wiped after that experience. I didn't hang around to chat. I knew I needed the silence of my cabin. That night I resolved to free myself from the past; whatever was left to move through, I would. I now understood how it was possible to face the relationships and wounds I've avoided for decades. I got a taste of freedom, and I knew I wanted more... all in due time.
Now, as I reflect back on the weeks that have passed since that event, I can see that the freedom hasn't faded. I truly feel relief from the suffering I once wallowed in from that unsettled "business." Notions, thoughts, or memories that used to bubble up inside me, that stirred me up or bothered me, haven't resurfaced since that night.
I'm not saying I don't still have past memories and wounds that need healing, but what I am saying is that the ones that were ready to go, the contracts that needed to end, did, and I am grateful for the peace I am enjoying as a result.
Stay tuned for my next blogs, I'll tell you how I conquered my fears of the woods in a dark outdoor sauna, and I'll set the scene for the most amazing revelation of all...the magical spiritual moment at tent site number 1.
For now, if you have any questions or you've had a similar experience somewhere in nature, comment below and tell me about it! I really want to know!
AUTHOR: Laurie-Elle is an OSYL Higher Self Messenger, Intuitive Energy Healer, Intuitive Guide, Akashic Records Channel & Reiki Master. Her main purpose in this lifetime is to help you hear the whispers, the cues, and yes, even the roar of the Universe. She shares the information that will lead you to more JOY, more ABUNDANCE and to experience a greater sense of PEACE in your life.
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